WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU FAIL?

All of us at one time or another encountered some type of failure in life. Sometimes the things we set out to achieve, may take more than one shot before it becomes a success. Don't let that stop you though. We all have our moment. Best believe that.

My most recent failure came in a form of a sport referred to as a bikini competition. Although, I've been involved in this type of sport before, I've never felt so beaten and discouraged by it as much as I have with this one.

I was angry at myself. I felt like I really didn't give it my all- and therefore, I didn't deserve to win.

All I wanted to do was win a trophy for my husband- (who's passed a few years ago).

Well, it didn't happen as I planned. In fact, nothing happened as I planned. From one thing to another, failure after failure.

As I stood back stage, listening to the guy call out the names for the top five winners, it really made me aware of what was happening on a spiritual level. I wasn't ready to receive.

I watched all five women step back on stage. I knew it was their moment and they earned it. I was happy for them and felt humbled.

It was that moment, back stage, where I realized that I had to step up my game and not let the distractions distract me from my goals anymore. Plus, I needed to stop focusing on petty shit.

My thoughts today: I don't blame anyone or anything for how things unfolded for me. I realized that what's for me is still on the way.

So what to do when you fail? Just keep working. Keep believing. What ever your goal is. And never settle before your blessing!

JOURNEY TO MY FIRST BIKINI SHOW

As some of you may already know me here from past posts about my husband's journey with cancer, I just wanna say, thank you again from the bottom of my heart for being part of all that with us. All of you are truly appreciated.

But on another note, I'm also here because I've decided, this August to start documenting my weekly journey with my first bikini show. Actually, I've been prepping for one for some years now- so this goal is way passed over due on my clock.

WEEK 12 PROGRESS:

Lately, it's been all about them guessing games. When to start the cardio process. How much calories to consume.

What are the judges looking for in a bikini competitor. How different should I be lifting weights compare to a figure competitor. Lots of researching.

But it ain't just about the physical part. It's also getting your mind right, and keeping your emotions in check. Now, there's some challenge for you.

I WANT TO WRITE

Hello to all my blog fans.

I don't quiet know what's inspiring me to keep writing on this blog because in the beginning I was only inspired by my dear husband and our journey with cancer. And that was mostly to share our thoughts, and experience with the disease as we tried to give attention to only think health.

But it's been almost 2 years since he passed over and this burning desire to write does not want to die in me.

Over the few years I learned some things on the subject of health- but more so on how to go about achieving greater health while being faced with an illness. There's so much that we can do for ourselves without involving the medical profession that I feel it needs to be shared.

Did you know obesity is also considered a disease now? (couldn't believe it.) But it's true. And I will be the

first to say that we don't have to accept that. There's some things that we still have control over- and that is our own health.

On that note, I will end this post by adding: Always keep health in mind. We know that everything begins with a single thought right? It's powerful and can have a huge effect on our lives too.

I look forward to adding more on that subject and many more. And as always, thanks for your time.                                    

INSPIRED TO WRITE AGAIN

Hello again. I'm back and been inspired to continue writing on one of my favorite subjects- HEALTH. I didn't want to give up on this blog that I started with Luis because he was my biggest inspiration to write about achieving greater health- even in the worst circumstance ever.

I became truly inspired again to continue writing because of my dad's circumstance.   

You see, recently my father was diagnosed with Atrial Fibrillation. Which is an irregular heart rhythm

involving the heart's two upper pumping chambers. Normally, the heart beats in an even, steady pattern. During A-fib, the heart's two upper chambers beat in a chaotic and irregular manner.  He was in the hospital for 5 days.

He had a test done on him to see if he had a blockage on one of his arteries.

And the good news came on good Friday. It was a good Friday for us all. Every part of his good old heart is clean.

MY THOUGHTS

This has reminded me why health is the most precious thing in life, and sometimes we can take our health for granted.

I think giving thanks for your health everyday is vital, because when you are grateful for your health, you will not only maintain your current health but you will also increase the flow of health to you.

I think it's more than just about your diet...........until next time, give thanks to having a healthy heart.          
    

NEW CHAPTER

Hi everyone,

For those of you who didn't know, my soulmate Luis has passed on to a whole new dimension (heaven) on February 28th.

Since his passing over, I wasn't sure what I was going to do with this site. But 2 inspiring things happened to me today that I couldn't ignore.

One, my best friend Amabel, reminded me about the book that I wanted to write about in the future. She also showed some interest in my blog and wondered why I haven't been updating- which made me very happy and inspiring thoughts soon began to unfold. I want to give thanks to my BFF for the great encouragement!

And two, I realized that just because Luis is not with us physically, it doesn't mean he isn't here spiritually.

He has communicated with me on a spiritual level which is very comforting- and I do believe in the after life communication with us.

I've been opening some new doors and exploring the spiritual side of our beings- and boy is it exciting.
I'd love to share the things I'm finding out here in hopes I can be of any help to any one like others have been to me.

So for now, I will leave and return on a later date.

Until next time......sleep in peace and wake with joy.      

NO CHEMO

Hey guys,

I wanted to let you guys know that Luis will not be having chemo tomorrow.

Playing Video Games While Waiting

When we visited the E.R. on Tuesday for the biliary tube issue, they took some blood work from him as usual.

Before we left the hospital, they gave him a prescription for antibiotics just in case of an infection.

A different kind of blood work called culture was also taken but the results hadn't come back yet- until today.

It showed an organism bacteria was found in the blood- and Dr. Vashi wants him on a 10 day antibiotic via IV.

A company called Coram will  be coming out to our house tomorrow to connect a pump that will infuse the medicine over an hour. We will also be trained on how to connect and disconnect the pump for the remainder 9 days.
 
They'll be no chemo tomorrow and his dr wants a follow up a few days from now. She wants to make sure he's properly covered with antibiotic before giving him chemo again.

It's amazing how things happen sometimes. We were just chatting this morning about (believe it or not) wishing there was no chemo tomorrow.

His leg can use a little more recovery time and he had BIG plans to enjoy the super bowl with family. Well, his prayer was heard.     

We look at what just happened as another counted blessing- and not as a down fall. We believe God is guiding the doctors on every decision they make with regards to his treatments. And everything is going as planned.

"The great secret to happiness is to count your blessings while others are adding up their troubles." :o)

Until next time........have a peaceful and blessed night.  

BILIARY TUBE ISSUE!

Hello everyone,

I hope you all are doing great and are in the best of health. I have some new news to share with you guys.

But first, let me mention that the pain that Luis was experiencing seemed to lessen. He's doing much better.

Dr. Rohman did tell us that with the nerve blocks, Luis will have days where it feels like the block isn't working at all.

We believe he might've been experiencing one of those days. Luis told me to just go ahead and cancel the appointment with Dr. Rohman.

BILIARY TUBE ISSUE

A couple of days ago, his biliary tube stopped draining. We went in to the E.R. and were told he needed it replaced. They told us to come in the following morning- (which was today) for the procedure.

Everything went good and he's sound as sleep at the moment. Dr. Vashi just spoke to me and said sometimes those tubes get loose and wore out causing it to get out of place. He said they replaced the tube with a thicker one. Things should be working like new  again.

Also, the old tube started to leak right after chemo and Luis was getting really annoyed by it. This new tube actually fixed that issue as well. No more leaks!

Right now, he's in recovery for a few hours and is expected to come home later today.

Chemo is still scheduled for this Friday. If anything changes I will let you guys know.

I have a few hours to spare so I will let you guys go so you guys can enjoy the rest of your day, as I will go and continue enjoying mine as I get my workout done here at the treatment center.